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Write On Right Now!

Once upon a time there was a girl who wanted to write. And that would be me. I've moved my journal about my writing life over to LiveJournal http://susanwrites.livejournal.com This blog will be filled with writing prompts and exercises so we can all write on right now! Please feel free to share your favorites.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Writing scares me

When I do it right - when I dismiss the editor on my shoulder and silence the critical voices in my head, when I shut my eyes, open my heart and let myself feel EVERYTHING, when I peel back the skin of the story and write with emotional honesty -writing scares the hell out of me. Everything I think and feel is right out there in the open for the world to see and that's a terrifying and often paralyzing thought.

But that's what good writing does, splits you wide open and spills you into the world covered in nothing but guts and raw emotion.

I have to remind myself of this all the time, that my voice comes from writing with emotional honesty. But it's hard. Excruciatingly hard. Because once the words are out there for the world to see people will make judgements about the person behind the words. They can't help it and that fact intimidates a lot of writers (like me) to the point that much of what they write comes out sounding unbelievable.

When I teach, I encourage my students to tap into their own emotional experiences and then channel that emotion into their stories. I try to do the same with my own work. My middle grade novel, The Truth About Fathers, didn't really come to life until I let myself feel the true depth of negative emotions I still carry about growing up without a father. The novel isn't about that, it's about a girl who stays with her father after a divorce and how the two of them build a new relationship together. But I allowed the pain of not having a father during those growing-up years to surface and then poured that emotion into the main character's feelings about her mother during the divorce. I relived the longing for a father and the uncertainty of what having a father meant and used those emotions to fuel my character as she worked through her own new relationship with her father.

The result? A character you can care about. A story that makes people cry because of the honest emotion. A book that people tell me rings true.

Was it easy? No way. Was it worth it? Absolutely.

All creating, writing or music or art, all creative work demands courage from the creator. In order to write believable fiction we often have to be willing to bleed on paper.Go ahead and let yourself be scared. Let yourself feel every emotion - the pain, the anger, the longing, the laughter, the love. Let it bubble up until it boils over and then pour it into your writing.

Rollo May, in his book Courage to Create, says, "If you do not express your own original ideas, if you do not listen to your own being, you will have betrayed yourself. Also, you will have betrayed your community in failing to make your contribution."

Because of who you are and what you have experience, there are stories only you can tell. Feel the fear, dig deep and start writing.

Write on, right now. Susan

2 Comments:

At Friday, May 13, 2005, Blogger Nelson said...

Self-censorship is the death of a writer, but how do we know what we write should be made public?

 
At Friday, May 13, 2005, Blogger Susan Taylor Brown said...

That's a tough one, isn't it? I have stories that I want to write but I know I won't as long as certain people are alive. They might never read them but the thought that they might is enough to scare me.

I think we have to reach the point of writing without censoring ourselves and then, only after we have written the truth, then we can decide how much of it we need to share, or how much we just needed to know, in order to write.

Write on, right now.
Susan

 

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